Raghu was in a teary state one night before sleep overcame...
he siad he did not want to die. i was gaping like a fish... who's brains were
deep fried. glad we sleep in a dark room adn he did nto see the stupid look on my
face in response to a very valid concern.<br><br>i tried to tell him that leaves
becoem compost as do most things on earth. everything on a sheer matter level
becomes something else. our bodies are food for a million other bodies, matter
of differnet kinds etc. i'm not even talking about souls, religious beliefs etc.
just sheer matter turning into matter... and that our sadness when a toy dies, a
person dies or a pet dies... varies in intensity. nto the words i used that night...
but thats the basic things i got accross.
raghu seemed accepting and eventually feel asleep.<
At some point some weeks later... he sais "when i'm in hospital to be reborned will
it hurt?" that questino was making so many wrong assumptions that i did nto know
where to begin. luckily i got off easy as he seemed to be distracted.
i only reiterated what i siad before without using the words hospital adn hurt.

a few days ago.. raghu told me matter of factly "when i'm reborned i want to be
reborned as a girl woman" again same gaping fish face and no immediate response.
I'm in for the long haul.... and i wonder sometimes if i bitten off more than i
can chew. still its better this way than being told that its time for homework or
its beyond the scope of the maths assignment or some such. I love life learning.

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